…Has happened since I last blogged. I could just blog crap or make my mundane happenings sound more exciting than they are but lately I have been feeling rather *bleah* as in “I couldn’t care less about anything right now”. I hate this kind of mood and when I get into this sort of funk it takes ages to get out of it again. I think a lot of it is because I have finally come to a point in my life where I am at a crossroads and I have no idea what I want out of life right now. It’s so weird because right now I should be on top of the world. The house is paid for and the legalities of it is all sorted, I am now semi-retired and enjoying finally having free time to enjoy life and finally we have the security to what the things we always wanted to do but never had the time or money to do.
The financial thing is still the hardest. Even though we have no mortgage now you would think the money should be rolling in but because it took every cent we own we now have to wait for the bank balance to build which it is…slowly. I guess I am just impatient! MM and I are currently making a list of all the things we want to do to the house and planning somewhere to go for a holiday. Right now I would be happy just for a weekend away! Both of us are in a bit of a rut and I think we just both need to get away for a couple of days and re-focus on our future.
Another thing I guess I am down about is all the weddings happening in the next year or 2. MM and I have been engaged for 13 years now and still haven’t had our “Big Day” but that was for financial reasons and really, neither of us was in that much of a hurry. But now this year we have 2 sets of friends who are marrying this year, both of them very short engagements. These are 2 separate couples who are in the older bride and groom category, both lots are second marriages so they will be small and simple affairs. Then in the new year MM’s oldest daughter will marry in Tasmania (of course we haven’t been invited to that one and are apparently not supposed to know about it but of course everyone already told us about it and I have since spoken to this daughter about it) and MM’s niece who is 22 years old marrying her really nice boy. And all four of these weddings will be beach weddings which has kind of annoyed me a little as I have been planning a beach wedding for 13 years and now “everyone” is having a beach wedding so ours will just be “the same as everyone else’s”. MM thinks I am crazy and says there is no reason why we still can’t have one as every wedding is different. And I know he is right but I am just being a petulant little child at the moment! *pout*
So I think I will go back to the drawing board and start again. Actually I have made enquiries about weddings in the Whitsundays as they do weddings from start to finish and we will pay for my family and MM’s family to attend and have a simple and special wedding at one of the resorts. Will depend on how much we can save. MM’s mother is not getting any better and I don’t want to make the same mistake as I did with my dad and not having it while he was still here for it.
I have however, planned to take mum to Canberra next Anzac Day and be part of the ANZAC service at the Australian War Memorial. It is supposed to be fantastic and apparently there are now photos there of dad and his Korean battalion on show there now in the new exhibit so mum is really excited about going. She really needs a trip away and my cousin lives right in Canberra and has a big house so she often tells us to come visit so accommodation will be a breeze.
October I am hoping to visit my old home town, Gladstone. Miss Froggy will be there then too so I have told MM that’s where I will be come October so long as everyone there stays put and don’t make other plans!
Dad’s 2nd Anniversary came and went. I made a really beautiful powerpoint display of photos set to one of my favourite songs to present to everyone on the day and everyone loved it! I put it on mum’s desktop of her computer so now she plays it every night before she goes to bed! Miss 17 was absolutely thrilled with it as she misses her grandad more than she lets on. I have yet to put it on a CD for her as she been having trouble playing it on her laptop. We had a small morning tea together and it wasn’t as sombre as I thought it would be. We are all moved on I think although we still miss him a lot especially at special times but the good thing too is mum is finally settled and starting to look to the future. She is taking better care of herself health wise although she is now under more stress since my sister and her kid moved in with her which is probably the other thing I am annoyed at right now!
Most of you will know my sister and also know how little I think of her. I do however adore her daughter, Miss 17, my gorgeous niece who was raised by my mum and dad. Thankfully she is nothing like her mother and even tells us all the time that she never wants to be like her mother and does everything she can not to do the things she did. Anyway my sister and her son were kicked out of yet another unit and is now “apparently” on the priority list for housing commission which I doubt considering how Brisbanites are still waiting for homes since the January floods and I am pretty sure they will get first preference.
Anyway she tells mum she will only be there for a month at the most until they place her. Three months later she is still at mum’s not paying any money towards anything. She will occasionally vacuum or wash dishes to make up for it but other than that she and her 13 year old bum off mum. My nephew, “Gremlin” I shall call him eats like a horse and spends all his days, when not wagging school, watching TV or on the playstation and refuses to get off his rear to help. He also hates his mother with a passion and it is not unknown for him to thump, kick or bite his mother and call her very rude names. My sister is covered in bruises from where he does these things but she laughs it off and as a result he continues the behaviour. He detests women. He calls my mother foul names and I have told her that she is to kick them out if it continues but of course she doesn’t want to see them on the street. Perhaps I am being a little harsh? He is yet to call me anything and I am just waiting for it because I can tell you now I won’t be laughing it off and he will be lucky to speak to me at all with his teeth on the floor. The people he listens to are my brother and my MM as both have actually put him on his butt when he has been cheeky to them so he knows not to push their buttons.
The sad thing in all of this is Miss 17 has moved out of her home for 17 years because she can’t stand having her mother and brother around. She is embarrassed by them when she has her boyfriend over so she now lives with him and his parents until such time as her mother moves out which could be never. I do think though that since she is almost 18 they will decide to find a place together. He is 20 now and working full time and his parents are rather well off and have been feeding them and letting them stay in the granny flat rent free. She has had to grow up quite quickly but as I said before is very determined to make her own way in the world and not be a leech like her mother.
Gosh I did ramble didn’t I!! Sorry!! Tomorrow is another day off and I am going to try and make my very first bag so I will be making a trip to Spotlight first thing to find my material! Hopefully I will have something to show off next blog!
